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| Fr. Thiemo Klein , LC | |
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“I am not a theologian, but I know that
it was the Virgin Mary who brought me home from
the war”. My grandfather was a barber who survived bombs
and bullets as a machine-gunner sergeant in World War II.
Malaria and shrapnel stayed with him for the rest of
his life. So did his experience of the living God
who helped him through the valley of death.
When I hung
up the phone, I felt better. My grandfather’s witness across
the Atlantic Ocean had brought light into the darkness of
doubt. Doubts about the faith are like an earthquake: no
place to hide, nothing to hold on to. Parents, friends,
Church, and teachers become suspect of false teaching. Were they
all living in error? But why was I doubting?
In
the Back Seat
“Let’s go, kids, shine your shoes and get
in the car!” It was part of our Sunday morning
ritual. After a good breakfast, my two sisters and I
would polish our shoes and go to Mass with our
parents. I grew up in a Catholic family in the
countryside in Herford, a hilly town of 60,000 inhabitants in
Westphalia, in northwest Germany. It was great fun to play
in the forests or on the farm of a friend,
building huts and little dams in a stream. I was
an expert with the fishing rod and a sharpshooter with
my pellet gun.
Our family was special. We ate fish on
Friday and no sweets during Lent. Nobody else in my
elementary school classroom got up at 7 a.m. on Sunday
morning to go to Mass. Almost everybody there was Protestant,
and religion was not important to them. I went to
Protestant religion class at school and then had Catholic religion
class in another school in the afternoon. Later, even though
it was much further away, I attended a Catholic school,
and that meant quite some sacrifice for our parents (Thank
you, Mum and Dad!) All this made our life tougher,
but created an unspoken mystique: We are Catholic!
But I
was not yet on my personal journey of faith. I
was still, so to speak, in the back seat of
my parents’ car, and my faith was still a black-and-white
photocopy of theirs. Into the copy machine had gone the
children’s Bible, religion class, and Sunday Mass, and although the
picture was the same, it was achromatic and some lines
were indistinct. The color of personal experience was missing. Color
was waiting for me in Canada…
Northern Exposure
“What a wide-open horizon!”
I exclaimed as I got out of the plane. Just
16 years old, I had flown to Canada as an
exchange student for the 1991-1992 school year. I lived in
Barrhead, Alberta, a town of 3,000 inhabitants two hours northeast
of Edmonton. My host family consisted of a divorced lady
and her two children. I was the babysitter. Little did
I know that I was going to encounter Christ in
that house.
Joe, a good Catholic friend from high school, invited
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me to a Japanese Jiu-Jitsu martial arts club where he
was the assistant trainer. I started to go there regularly
to work out. The trainer, Phil, was black-belt, and a
“born-again” Lutheran. He was as fervent a Protestant as Joe
was a decided Catholic. Dressed in our white Judo suits,
between push-ups, shoulder throws, kicks and punches, we would discuss
theology: What did Christ say about the Eucharist? Why can
we pray to the Virgin Mary? Little by little I
started to question why I was Catholic. Was it only
because I happened to be born into a Catholic family?
I knew the doctrine about Christ, but I did not
have the experience Phil seemed to have. His was a
personal relationship with Jesus, not just knowledge. His love for
Jesus Christ and his fervent witness impressed me very much.
In
spring we went to a fighting tournament somewhere in the
Rocky Mountains of British Columbia. We drove for 24 hours.
During the trip, Phil told me how he had stopped
practicing his childhood Catholicism and had drifted to Asian meditation.
He had been striving to empty his consciousness to reach
Nirwana. At one point he was submerged in the spiritual
world when suddenly he felt a dark and evil spiritual
presence grasping for his soul to possess him. In panic
he shouted “Oh God!” – and the name made the
evil presence withdraw. Phil told his Lutheran girlfriend about his
experience. She brought him to her pastor, and Phil re-discovered
Jesus Christ under his guidance. Now he was giving classes
at the Jiu-Jitsu club to finance his theology studies: he
wanted to become a Lutheran minister. He knew his faith
and treated me with a lot of charity; we stayed
over at his house on my birthday, and his mother
even baked a cake for me.
To Be or Not
to Be…
I came back to the house in Barrhead in
the early hours of a very cold April day. Everybody
else was still asleep. Snow had fallen and the sun
was just rising. A deep silence reigned. I sat down
on the couch in the living room and looked out
the big window in front of me. In my soul
I contemplated the impressions of the last days, weeks, and
months. What is important? What does it all mean to
me? Suddenly the light of truth invaded my soul: Jesus
Christ is real! Jesus is a real living person, my
friend and Savior! He died for me on the cross!
He washed all my sins away. He opened the way
to eternal life! I knew then that his love is
the most important thing on Earth. Untold joy overflowed into
my heart, and my life changed at that instant. The
love of Christ healed something in me, gave me a
strength I did not feel before. A chain that tied
me to the abyss was broken. “I am free!”
Now I
really wanted to be a Christian. But Catholic? It had
been a Protestant who told me about Jesus Christ, the
living Savior. I had many doubts and many questions and
I felt like the ground was moving beneath me. When
I told my grandfather on the phone and he told
me how the Virgin Mary had helped him, I felt
better but I still needed more.
I wanted to talk
to a priest. The parish priest was not at home,
but on Sunday the bishop came. Years later I remembered
that he came to preach about vocations to the priesthood.
I was not thinking about the vocation, I just wanted
to know why I should be a Catholic. I talked
to the bishop´s secretary, Father Francois, from Quebec, for two
hours. He explained to me how our faith is the
most biblical and complete. We have the complete original, no
abbreviations, no remix. That convinced me. Riding home on my
bicycle, I said to myself: “I want to be Catholic!”
The
Rosary Rebel
The father of my friend Joe told me: “Pray
a Rosary every day, and you won´t have problems with
your faith anymore”.
“Very good,” I said. “So how do
you pray the Rosary?” I didn´t know how because it
was not the custom in my parish. On the way
home from Joe´s house, Joe gave me his rosary, a
brief explanation and a card listing the 15 mysteries. I
must have been rather scared to lose my faith, because
I prayed all 15 mysteries that night.
From that day
on I prayed the Rosary every night, even when I
came home early in the morning from a party. It
took me months to learn how to see the scenes
and share the feelings of Christ and Mary. My favorites
were the sorrowful mysteries, where you can see how much
Christ loves us. I wanted the whole world to know
about Christ´s love for us.
In July of 1992, I
came back to Germany. Many old friends had changed a
lot: colored hair, smoking cigarettes, long nights at the disco…
They were grasping for a personal freedom that I had
already found in Jesus Christ. They were rebels against the
establishment and became slaves to fads, fashions, and music. The
Rosary gave me access to a love out of this
world. I was my own person, because I leaned on
Jesus.
Different impressions hit me. As a catechist in my
home parish, I found out how much the kids need
Christ. “A priest lives for Christ 24 hours a day,”
I said to myself. That would be something worth dedicating
your life to. If I could get only one soul
to heaven, I would have done something that lasts for
eternity. What greater mark could I leave in this life?
I found that in my prayer life I had experiences
similar to the ups-and-downs my friends had in their relationships
with their girl-friends. When I told my best friend, he
raised an eyebrow: “Maybe you do have a vocation…” The
thought of becoming a priest came and disappeared, but with
more prayer it became constantly present. Finally, I made it
part of my personal rebellion against the mainstream mediocrity. If
you do not understand, try this saying, “I am going
be a priest!” and you will provoke much more thought,
interest, and friction than any punk. I was a rebel
with a divine cause!
Later on, I learned to wish
to be a priest only for love of God. My
parish priest helped me with his example. I saw him
praying alone in front of the tabernacle in the church.
“That is really a man of God,” I said to
myself. Also, the priest at my school, the Marienschule Bielefeld,
gave me a good example. He had great care for
Christ in the Eucharist.
The Real Thing
I met the Legionaries
of Christ at a youth retreat in Bonn. Father Eamon
Kelly impressed me. He had a personal relationship with God
and a burning love for Christ, the Church, the Pope,
the Virgin Mary, and the salvation of souls. “That’s the
type of priest I want to be,” I said to
myself. Father Albert Gutberlet and Father Klaus Einsle were there
too and sang a song about the vocation. When I
read the information about the congregation, it was love at
first sight. I knew: “This is going to be my
religious order”.
But first I had to finish high school
in 1994. When my parents brought me to the candidacy
program, and they saw the novitiate my mother prophesized: “You
will have to change a lot!” She was right. The
candidacy was not easy and the novitiate turned out to
be even more difficult. But I got what I wanted:
a good, Christ-centered priestly formation and an environment of real
brotherhood.
The experience of Christ grew over the years to
a spiritual union of lives: in Salamanca, Spain while studying
humanities; in New York as a student of philosophy; in
the Czech Republic, Slovakia, and Poland during four years of
apostolic internship doing youth work; and especially in Rome during
my years of study in philosophy and theology. The priesthood
is not a job; it is a living love.
Father Thiemo
Klein was born in Herford, Nordrhein-Westfalen (Germany) on April 18,
1975. He studied at the Ursuline´s Marienschule in Bielefeld. He
spent the school year of 1991-92 in Barrhead, Alberta in
Canada. In September of 1994 he entered the novitiate of
the Legionaries of Christ in Roetgen, Germany. He studied humanities
in Salamanca (Spain) and went to New York to study
philosophy. With a bachelor’s degree in philosophy, he started his
apostolic internship in 1999 as an assistant for youth work
in Slovakia, the Czech Republic, and Poland. After four years
of extensive language studies and pastoral experiences, he completed his
university studies in Rome at the Pontifical Regina Apostolorum College
from 2003 to 2008, earning a licentiate degree in philosophy
and a degree in theology. During this time, he also
worked apostolically in Germany. From the summer of 2008 on,
he has led the youth work of the Legionaries of
Christ in Bratislava, the capital of Slovakia.