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Father Roberto Aspe, LC, was born on 20 August 1965
in Mexico City. He studied in the Cumbres Institute and
at Anahuac University, both in Mexico City. In 1984 he
consecrated his life to God within the Regnum Christi Movement
and in 1992 he began his religious life in the
Legionaries of Christ at the novitiate in Salamanca, Spain. He
received a Master´s Degree (License) in business administration from Anahuac
University, a Bachelor´s in theology and a Master´s in philosophy
from the Athenaeum Regina Apostolorum in Rome, Italy. He studied
in the Program of Instruction for Lawyers, a continuing education
course at Harvard University, and is currently working toward a
master´s degree in Canon Law at the Gregorian University in
Rome He has been the Finance Director at Anahuac University
and the Territorial Administrator of Mexico and South America for
the Legionaries of Christ, amongst other responsibilities.
For a long time
I resisted surrendering myself to the vocation. I thought about
it for over four years. I quite honestly did not
want to consecrate my life to God but rather I
preferred to keep building my life taking advantage of the
opportunities that were coming my way. My great longing was
to be a successful entrepreneur and that was what I
was preparing myself for. When I was twelve years old,
I asked my Dad if I could get a job
at an insurance agency for the summer. At that age
I am sure it was not the fulfillment of a
dream
come true but I saw it as the first step
at earning some money on my own and a chance
to learn something about the business world.
It was an altogether
extraordinary experience and I immediately decided to try it again
the next summer. Apart from the work experience that I
gained, I also noticed a great superficiality amidst a number
of the employees. I belonged to ECYD (a youth organization
directed by the Legionaries of Christ) and it made me
uncomfortable to know that the employees did not know Christ
because they worked in a financial institution; however, I saw
that it was not their fault, because an office wasn´t
the most appropriate place for a priest either... How could
they be guilty if they did not have anyone to
preach to them? This stirred my soul and thus the
idea to consecrate myself to God as a layman began
to arise in order to work in these settings and
draw the people who work in the business world closer
to Christ.
I thought that it was a great idea and
it appeared to go well with my desire to be
an entrepreneur; but the "good life," college, and the possibility
to have my own business led me to postpone my
decision to consecrate myself to God. I really enjoyed being
with my friends, the places where we would hang out,
the parties, and so many other things that were just
plain fun. At the University, the Dean of the Administration
Department told us that only one out of every three
of us would wind up graduating. From that moment I
decided that I was going to be one of that
group, so with a good group of friends, we decided
to dedicate ourselves to our studies. At this time, the
reality of having my own business began to materialize with
a focus on the circumstances that surrounded the Mexican government
in the area of exports. I thought of exporting silver
and onyx to the USA, because I had found a
promising contact. I attended a number of courses at the
Mexican Institute of Foreign Commerce and it looked very promising
that I could begin my own business.
Having a well-established career,
the possibility of having my own business, and being a
pretty good Christian all seemed to me to be the
perfect mix for happiness, but I must admit that my
personal experience turned out to be quite the opposite. All
of these things really excited me but in a very
short period of time, once I got accustomed to things,
the excitement just always seemed to vanish. This is what
continually happened. I began to
realize that things do not resist
the test of time, they get old. I applied this
to myself, "in about 40 years I´ll be 60 and
I will have lived the greater part of my life".
My
plans began to shake a little. I noticed that I
held myself back when faced with new challenges because I
knew that they would come to an end. I wanted
to last and it was becoming clearer and clearer to
me that external things would not assure me of that.
I wanted to have the security, as any entrepreneur would.
I wanted to invest where I could find the best
results with next to no risk, but I just could
not find the offer that could assure me of all
that.
"His hands are bigger", I told myself one day gazing
at an enormous bronze image of Christ, elegantly deformed, that
is in the Church of Saint Ignatius of Loyola in
Mexico. In front of those hands, proportionally very big in
comparison with the whole figure, I realized that God was
offering me his hands to carry me and help me
take on the commitment of consecrating my life to him
as a layman, which I had thought about so many
years before. I saw before my eyes a sure path,
not because of myself but because of he who was
guiding me. A great peace overtook my soul, God was
telling me that the
"yoke is heavy, but the burden is
light". Now I can say it with great ease, but
I remember how much I had to suffer to get
to that conclusion.
The most difficult moment was telling my Dad.
I didn´t think that he was going to understand my
decision. I couldn´t keep back my tears when I went
to tell him, because I knew that he never held
back anything in order to give us the absolute best
formation. I thought that he would say that I was
going because I was afraid of facing the world. To
my great surprise his answer was the following: "I brought
you all up so that each of you could choose
what they wanted to be in life, striving to be
the best. It doesn´t matter if you want to be
a street sweeper, just be the best. If I opposed
your decision, I would go against my own principles, and
I am not going against my own principles. You can
go, and always know that you can come back home."
At this moment I can say I have not been
the absolute best in this path, but I can assure
my father that I have been faithful to my word
when I told God that I would follow him.
A few
days after speaking with my Dad, I went to consecrate
my life to God in the Regnum Christi Movement so
I could reach those areas of the business world that
I had experienced when I was twelve years old. Afterwards,
I realized that God was calling me to be a
priest, so I entered religious life in the Legion of
Christ.
These 18 years of walking towards the altar have not
been easy. At times I have doubted, I have experienced
my own weakness, I have fallen, but always, come what
may, I have kept on searching for those hands that
always clear the fog and help me to understand that
I will never be the owner of this vocation that
I have received nor to try and make it a
personal possession. Now, right before I receive the great gift
of the priesthood, I begin to
look for those hands that
my parents taught me to search for. At the same
time, I entrust myself to those hands so that they
will continue to carry me along this path which today
once again I want to walk.
Now, right before I receive
the great gift of the priesthood, I begin to look
for those hands that my parents taught me to search
for. At the same time, I entrust myself to those
hands so that they will continue to carry me along
this path which today once again I want to walk.